I don’t know if there’s a specific time of the month that I simply shut off from writing or doing creative things – but I do it anyway (which explains my no-show here on the blog for a week – again). It’s become more of a habit that I haven’t been able to break for the past couple months. Not sure to say it’s good, but for a workaholic like me (who rarely does nothing), it probably is.
I’ve been spending selective days alone painting and writing though (photos below) – only for the purpose of it, and not for freelance or things that entail payment & clients. It’s nice to always go back to square one and remember the reason why I draw, or paint, or write – to feel good (about myself), to release my inhibitions, and to instill in me that passion that constantly keeps me going.
February, so far, is eye-opening. Suddenly, I’m getting the feeling that the universe is telling me to wake up and get going (literally). With everything that’s conspiring to show up on my plate, I don’t know how to go about it, to be honest.
First Week of February
I was featured on Young Star alongside four amazing illustrators and graphic designers for their Art Issue (online article here). It’s always an honor to be featured for YS. I think the extra pressure for this particular feature was having to draw a part of the photo which represented our personal styles – but it was definitely fun working on it. :)
Of course, the highlight (of my 22 years of existence, possibly) for my first week was TEDxUPM. I’m still pretty much overwhelmed with how it came about. More about that on my next post – but you can check out the video of my talk (c/o Rappler) here for the meantime.
That same weekend, I tagged along (and became an adopted child for the day) with Pong and Tippy and attended the Googly Gooeys workshop at Fully Booked.
It was a good excuse to practice (I barely have time to draw or paint on most days) and escape from work. I spazzed over Tippy’s book collection and watercolor set (I want a Holbein set!) as well. It was a Sunday well spent, definitely.
Thanks for having me, Pong and Tippy! You can check out their workshop schedules on their website.
Valentine’s season equates to Single Awareness season for me (ever since I was born). But apart from that, I enjoyed the company of my amazing family & friends – which is pretty much enough for now (lol).
1. Joluvian (aka brush lettering god from Madrid) dropped by Manila (he recently studied English in Siquijor island) to have a one-day brush lettering workshop at Fully Booked. I was lucky enough to have dinner with him and a few lettering artist friends (thanks Maan of Type Kita for the invitation!).
2. Spent a weeknight watching That Thing Called Tadhana with Vin, Raniel & Gian (#EdenSingles / Tumblr guys represent!). I liked the film – partly because JM de Guzman was crush worthy and partly because I love the storyline very much (I love movies that involve a lot of conversation & talking). We got to hang a bit after the movie and talk about art and life, and I am secretly congratulating myself for slowly deviating away from my introvertedness.
3. Pre-Valentine’s (aka payday traffic Friday) dinner was spent with Maine & Karen. It was fun! I don’t celebrate Valentine’s (NBSB problems) but good conversations + good food (Mary Grace is always on point) never fails.
4. My Valentine’s weekend was a staycation over at my best friend’s place. Tin has been my best friend (and second cousin!) since high school and it’s amazing to see how we’ve both been doing in different fields (she’s taking up Architecture). I missed her so much – and even if I was drowned with work last weekend, I really made it a point to just relax for a few hours and catch up on life, which was great.
5. Terno Tuesdays & Thursdays. In other news: Color coordination on point with my co-planners Joses & Reena the other day. Here we are channeling the color of the year (according to Pantone), marsala. Lol. And just yesterday, Joses & I were in green while Reena & Tricie were in denim. This is quite a coincidental thing (we didn’t get the memo), lol.
The Road to ABC
(this statement hit me real hard)
So the past week was really rough for me – in all aspects (I’m glad I met up with lots of friends to take my mind off things for a bit). Maybe it’s the TEDx hangover, or maybe it’s just my heart telling me that where I am now is not where I’m supposed to be. My (Abbey Sy/freelance) work right now is CRAZY, load-wise.
Although I’ve told myself (for 9 months now) that I can juggle two (extremely different) jobs, I’m afraid I can’t. And unfortunately, it’s not going the way I envisioned it to anymore.
I don’t want to end up doing things half-heartedly and wake up every day like a zombie running on zero sleep and unfinished work. I also don’t want to constantly ask myself if the struggle I’m experiencing right now will be worth it in the future, because I know in my heart that it won’t.
The Road to ABC is a personal project I’m working on. It’s also, I feel, a way for me to really discover what I want in life. I’m putting this point here because I need to remind myself that for once, I should at least give myself a chance to take bigger risks (and use my own advice) and follow what my heart really wants. Not necessarily in a creative-centric way, but also in a “personal development” kind of way (because I kinda have to fix my life too, you know).
New (exciting, “are you serious this is happening”, scary, nerve-wrecking, patience-killing, “I’ll take it ’cause life goals”) projects are creeping in as usual, and with life getting so much in the way, I kinda have to believe in myself more – that this is just the first step to that big leap I’ll be doing sometime soon. More than scared, I’m so excited. And even if I still tell myself I’m not ready, I’ll just go for it anyway.
So much for a busy month! How’s yours so far?
BTW, I’m announcing schedules of my Learn by ABC workshops via the mailing list (I’m having one every weekend this coming March!). If you want to be part of it, sign up here. Check out the announcements of schedules on the page, too.