I spent last (mid)night up typing this because (1) I just needed to let it out and (2) I’m trying my best to squeeze in some personal time to write despite my busy schedule.
(I’m also going through Team ABC applications at the moment. Gosh, these applicants are promising!)
I’ll be honest – even if I’ve mentioned this time and again, my life has been getting crazier than usual. With projects sprouting up here and there, (lots of) freelance work to attend to and finish (“dead” is forever relevant in deadlines), more endeavors to pursue (#adultlife), programs + events to prioritize (there are quite a handful this summer) and personal goals to accomplish this year, I suddenly feel like I need to step back and take a better look at how my life’s taking shape so far this year.
A few weeks from now, I’m closing a chapter of my life and opening myself to a new one (#theroadtoabc).
Okay, I know most of you are curious what The Road to ABC is all about. Well, it has a lot of layers that are soon to be unfolded bit by bit (starting this month!) so do keep track of it if you’d like to know (I’ll be subtle about it, just ’cause. LOL).
I’m actually pretty excited despite it being an impulse decision (that i knew I was going to do anyway, I just didn’t know when, back then) but it’s definitely going to be a challenge that I’m more than ready to take.
I’m also currently filtering out my blog content (and lessening my posting here for the meantime), so do expect a bit of idleness around here (sorry guys). It’s just that with the scope of work I’m dealing with (Type by ABC + Learn by ABC + Made by ABC are all active this month), it looks like this blog doesn’t fit in the big picture as much anymore. Hopefully though, I’ll properly stick to my schedules by end of March, plus when the interns come along. :) I still owe you guys a lot of backlog travel posts, eep!
BTW, I just wanted to share as well that I’ve been meeting up with a couple of awesome people over the weekend:
(2) my awesome web genius friend Mary, who coded all my blogs and websites since 2010 (this blog is getting a facelift in time for #theroadtoabc!),
These collaborations are just half of what I’m working on for this new quarter. It’s exciting (like, confetti please) and at the same time scary because I have little experience with organizing large scale events and doing major project management for these types of work.
Nevertheless, I am preparing myself to be able to deliver to my own standards, and as well as those of others’. I’ve always been a huge self-doubter and this makes me think that now’s not really the time to whine about it or sulk and hide in the corner about such a petty excuse. I’m secretly thanking myself that recently, I’ve learned to just DO IT and not really bother about the pressure (because I end up wasting more time) that comes with work.
I’m also wary of the fact that 24 hours is not really enough in my life. Heck, my Google Calendar right now is currently out of colors already (I used up all the colors for all my work / life stuff, like HOW EVEN) and I have an overflowing list of tasks on a daily basis.
I will also be honest that Team ABC has been playing such a huge role in my daily life lately (I had a nightmare the other night, LOL let us not talk about it). As much as I have everything else on my plate such as the freelance work and workshops, creating something entirely from scratch and recruiting people to work with me (read: I find joy in working alone) is such a daunting task that I only hope that I do my best to mentor these young girls (sorry, this is just me and my “OMG I’m old already” feels LOL).
Don’t get me wrong, I am super duper excited – I have always been wanting to share my knowledge to young ones who will be needing it as they pursue their own creative fields. It’s also funny because most of the applicants reminded me of my 17 year old self (during the first year I started to take blogging seriously). Here’s to hoping the 4 girls I’ll be hiring will be able to learn from their “Ate Abbey”! (In case you applied and you’re reading this, I have a heavy load of projects and events for your internship duration. *evil laugh* Sooo hold tight, it’s definitely gonna be a fun and crazy journey!)
Speaking of restructure, my workspace’s been slowly getting a facelift as well. I tried to channel my inner eye for interior design and relocated a few elements to make my space extra conducive for work (like putting my bed on the farthest corner of the room, so I don’t sleep that much, LOL). I’ve also been creating layout ideas for how it’s going to eventually look like (targeting by summer so the interns can visit…the ABC HQ!) since I’ll be working full-time come summer, and I need my office to…look like an office. Exciting times!
I don’t know how to properly say this, but I feel like this year is gonna be a promising and good one. I have not clearly figured out where I’m headed to from here on out, but now that I think about it, I guess it’s best to settle for the now and let the future unfold by itself. I’ll just try to adapt and jump on whatever I can manage to do with it, eventually.
Besides, work won’t do itself. I have 2372932032 deadlines to beat for the first two weeks of March. Ha, what summer.
On an unrelated note, it’s my dad’s death anniversary today. I don’t find meaning in commemorating it, actually, because it reminds me of loss that I never felt (until a few years ago, when I was mature enough to deal with it) – I was nine years old then. It’s been 13 years since he died, and I still remember the day he passed (he said goodbye to me that morning). I still owe him all the success and blessings that have come my way over the years (that he was never able to witness) – I wouldn’t have worked this hard if it weren’t for his constant storytelling about how he managed to succeed through hard work and discipline. He used to overwork a lot, and it’s funny because basically, that’s me at the moment, lol. I miss you, dad! Hope I’m making you proud up there.
Okay, I think I need to stop
talking writing for now. Restructuring of life commencing once I wake up tomorrow. :)
Hope this month’s going good for you!